Luckily for me and my finances, the things I owe most often are emotions or words – not actual debt.
These are phrases I think most people say as a sort of appeasement, to demonstrate their shame for wronging someone else, or their eagerness to pay off a balance of kindness that’s long been running up.
But as often as people claim to owe each other apologies or explanations or favors, I think many times we say we owe each other to comfort ourselves instead of the people we say we owe.
I started thinking about all this recently after I neglected, as I too often do, to keep in touch with a friend and follow up on our plans to see each other.
When I said I was sorry for disappearing, he was nice enough not to point out just how often and for how long I had vanished. Instead, he asked: “Why are you apologizing? You don’t owe me anything.”
We did (at last) end up meeting, but what he said has since stuck with me.
No, I didn’t owe him anything at the time. But it’s because he didn’t insist I owed him that I finally paid off my debt.